June 11, 2011

• Allowed Charges

  For the first 19 months we were here, we did not have medical insurance. During that time, none of us ever got sick or hurt enough to have to see a Doctor. I know that God had His hand of protection on us. In January, Blake’s job began to pay for he and I to have medical insurance. Last month I had to put it to use for the first time. I went in to get my foot checked and x-rayed. I knew that our insurance company would not cover the xrays and I have been anxiously awaiting the bill for that. Yesterday I got a letter from our insurance company letting me know that the medical clinic charged $75 for the xrays  but that they would only allow them to charge us $40 for them. I had forgotten about that….that they tell the doctor/hospital/ect.. the maximum they can charge us.

  Last night I was laying in bed thinking again, how great it felt to have someone tell the clinic what they were allowed to charge us, when I heard God say,
  “I do that for you too, Christina.”

  Life is hard. It is full of sacrifices and hardships that so often we have no choice but to endure. Sometimes I feel so out of control, and it makes me feel like I am suffocating in my anxiety. But last night God reminded me that I have a constant defender in Him. He DOES take life by the neck sometimes and say, “Ok that’s enough…Leave her alone.” He knows when I have reached my limit. He knows the exact moment when the struggles of this life cease to be about building my character and dependance on Him, and begin to cause my spirit to feel utterly hopeless and defeated. It is then that He stands up and fights for me. He rescues me and gives me time to drink by the still waters. He restores my soul. He reminds me that even through the shadows of darkness He never leaves me. (Ps. 23) That knowledge gives me the motivation to keep pressing on, to push farther than I pushed yesterday. To trust Him deeper than I trusted Him through the last valley. I picture Him standing beside me guarding me with His mighty right hand and singing over me and loving me every second of my life. (Zeph 3) He is a beautiful, beautiful God. 

     

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