March 30, 2011
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Dreams and Wanting
I have things that are still in my heart that I want to experience. I dare to sit and dream about them sometimes. I have been doing a lot of that lately. It leaves me with an ache, a longing. One thing about my dreams is that although they are full of being apart of something big that is all about God they also are sprinkled quite heavily with just plain old “wants.” Like a house with plenty of room and lots of windows with a beautiful view of nature. (mountains would be nice) I wonder sometimes if my dreams are God’s or mine? I was praying today asking God that very question. And I heard Him say, “You shall have no other gods before me.” And I started sifting through my dreams one by one. I asked myself what was most important to me. What do I really want? I know what the answer needs to be: I want nothing more than I want God. And what exactly does it mean to want God? I thought about what it means to want my husband. That one is easy. Intimacy. Absolute un-distracted time focused only on each other. I L-O-V-E that. I suppose that wanting God would be the same thing: Intimacy. Desiring un-distracted time focusing only on each other. Just me and God. And that I can have now.
